Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Proverbs 31:12

i had a lot to say today, so i'm just doing one verse.

P31:12: "She does him good and not harm, all the days of her life."

The work a woman does is not for her own good, but for the good of her whole family-- in this verse, her husband.

well, what i do in regards to homemaking (cleaning, coking, making lunches, etc.) makes me feel better about providing for my husband. but it's sort of selfish. i feel better when i do these things. he says he can take it or leave it. there's proof in this-- while i'm busy with work, school, etc, he helps around the house with dinner and laundry.

i make a point of reminding him that i still want to help. i'm terribly worried that i'll get into this habit of not working at home, so that when teaching and school is done, we'll be in the habit of husband doing the homemaking instead of me. this is not the way i want it to be. more importantly, it's not biblical. the man is supposed to do certain things for the family, just as the woman is supposed to do certain things for the family. i don't feel that those roles should be reversed in most situations.

reminder: this is my interpretation and analyzing of this verse. you don't have to agree. i am just comparing this against my life and encouraging myself to grow with this project. that being said, i still welcome comments and encourage you to leave whatever you're thinking after reading this.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

my "therapeutic dance"

i saw something today that used the words "therapeutic dance" to describe that something you do that soothes, calms, comforts you. my therapeutic dance is homemaking. or, to be more specific, working in the kitchen. just this morning, i got giddy dreaming of things like pumpkin cheesecakes with gingersnap crusts and vanilla sour cream toppings. or items like homemade enchiladas, made the traditional way. or just staring at the items i purchased at the farmer's market yesterday, because today i'll get to mold and manipulate them from carrots and onions and green beans and cucumbers to a roast and fresh fall side items that satisfy like nothing from a can is able to.

i even love sitting in my kitchen. after my freezer cooking days, i love to open my freezer and just look. planning menus excites me. mixing meatloaf brings me joy. not following recipes is one of the best ways for me to express my creativity.

i've grown in so many ways in the kitchen. i used to call my mom to ask whether to salt the water or not. i needed to know at exactly what temperature and for exactly how long to cook anything. "til it's done" was never an option. i lived my life following recipes. i would get frustrated because i'd get a small flicker of an idea in my head, but not have the ability to follow through because i was fairly ignorant in the logistics of it. for this, i apologize to my mom. for my lack of interest in learning her amazing cooking skills, her planning, and the way she worked a full day, then came home and made a home cooked dinner for us every day.

now, i do that. i work. two jobs, actually. i'm finishing my master's. just like my mom was. and i cook. every day. just like she did. so see? i sort of did learn. it just took me about 20 years longer than it takes many children who help in the kitchen.

i've decided that if i have a girl, i'm having a kitchen helper. i don't care how fun i have to make it seem. i want her to have the kitchen creativity when she's 7, not 27. i want a girly-girl. i don't care if i have to duct tape her to the kitchen stool, she is helping. kidding. sort of.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Proverbs 31:10-11

P31:10: "An excellent wife who can find? She is more precious than jewels."

first of all, no one finds their wife. at least not when the couple listens to God. I don't believe that it was by luck that husband and i are together, but only by the grace of God.

"more precious than jewels"
godly women are valuable. they will raise godly children and serve a godly husband. i know husband finds me valuable, but is it for the right reasons? is it because i make his lunch, or because i am a good wife and make his lunch willingly and bless it in the mornings?

P31:11: "The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain."

a godly woman is trusted by her husband to run the household, to make daily decisions. he doesn't have to check over her shoulders to make sure things are going as planned. he has his items to worry about, and it is her job to take care of the "other things".

i think i have this one pretty well. husband and i have a very open line of communication, so there's never a feeling that i'm holding something from him. he trusts me. he trusts me to run our finances, pay bills on time, have food on the table, and provide a comfortable environment in our house.

he trusts me to be honest in all that we talk about, including my stress level lately. maybe he trusts me too much for this. he trusts me to tell him where i need help (grading papers? making dinner?), and i often go about it myself, telling him "i'm fine, i've got it covered". he wants to help, i know he does. but i've got this weird idea that if i don't do it all, i'm failing. if i'm not doing homework and working and teaching and making dinner and cleaning and doing laundry and decorating for holidays, that i'm failing as a wife. but it shouldn't be about any of that. it should be about me trusting in my husband also, that he's able to help me.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Proverbs 31-- intro

i want to make a few things clear. i'm not going into this project thinking that i'm anything close to a proverbs 31 woman. i'm also not going in thinking that, by the end of it (or anytime in my life, for that matter), i'll be a proverbs 31 woman.

to me, this is a very introspective study. as i mentioned before, i keep "wanting" to be a proverbs 31 woman. but i don't know enough about it to even pretend to try to be one. so, i learn. i learn what an ideal, godly woman is, how she acts, what she embodies... then i work at becoming as close to that as i am physically, emotionally, and spiritually able to. i promise that if i do this study again in 10 years, it'll have a totally different point. i'd be at a different point in my life, so my proverbs 31 woman may be interpreted differently.

here's what my ESV study bible says about proverbs 31:10-31 (references removed, emphasis added)

an alphabet of womanly excellence. as the ESV footnote to v. 10 explains, this wisdom poem is an acrostic, in which each verse begins with the successive letter of the hebrew alphabet. the poem begins and ends with mention of the woman's "excellence". the probable intention of putting this together with the acrostic pattern is to show that this woman's character runs the whole range of excellence. this woman is married, and she is devoted to the well-being of her household, to which she contributes by her participation in outside economic concerns. at the same time she makes her home the center of ministry by giving generously to the poor and by instructing her children and household workers in true kindness. so her husband and children enjoy their lot and honor her for her industry

this lofty portrait of excellence sets such a high standard that it can be depressing to godly women today until its purpose is understood. first, the woman embodies in all areas of life the full character of wisdom commended throughout this book. this shows that even though the concrete situations up to now have generally envisinoed a cast of males, the teaching of the entire book is intended for all of God's people. second, as with other character types, this profile is an ideal: a particular example of full-scale virtue and wisdom toward which the faithful are willing to be molded. it is not expected that any one woman will look exactly like this in every respect.

see? even the bible commentary says it. i'll be working at this for my entire life. but that i'm studying this at all shows that i desire to be a godly woman, wife, and eventually, mother.

love my husband

marriage is not easy.
but it's worth it.

more coming later today on the Proverbs 31 Project.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

i am

grey's anatomy again. and i'm very disappointed in it this season.

listening to 
bob schneider. (the live album sounds better than studio tracks).

massachusetts, california, timbuktu. and the bible, of course.

holiday plans and craft projects

exhausted. overworked. tired. lame.

owly hats for baby.

for a patient and helpful husband, and for two jobs to pay for christmas presents.

Monday, October 18, 2010

the proverbs 31 woman

i say often (maybe not on here, or to anyone... but to myself at least) that i want to be a proverbs 31 woman. but do i know what that means? not really. i like how it sounds, but i have never analyzed the passage (proverbs 31:10-31) to see where i need to grow, and to learn to be like this as second nature.

so i'll be doing just that. over the next, well, undetermined amount of time, i'll be analyzing proverbs 31:10-31 verse by verse. it's going to be a pretty personal time of blogging here, and i'll get into some deep stuff. so i think i'll still have to sprinkle it with fun and posts of how great life is, so i don't feel down by how i don't measure up. you know, cause i'm all of 27 and a newlywed. but i think i need to be a perfect wife and woman. so yeah, it's going to be a tough read.

anyways, i hope i don't lose readers, and maybe i'll even get some people to think about themselves and their relationships. this isn't for everyone, i understand. but it is a pretty biblical way to say how a good wife lives. and since i talk the talk, i need to learn how to walk the walk.

stick around. it might be fun.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

have you seen this man? and other stories.

every time he comes on tv, chris asks me who this man is.

(not my photo, obviously)
 the first time, i said i didn't know.
the second time, i thought he was a reporter. because he was on the news.
but i really thought he was the guy from "curb your enthusiasm"-- just because i've seen him on billboards. or like joel osteen will look, in 20 years.

dude, i voted for the president, not the vice president. i don't know who the vp is. why should i?
(as ignorant as that sounds, i should let you know i'm not very political. at all. but really. it's just the vp. not the president. i know who the president is.)

**insert thought break here**

and now, so that you don't think i'm the lamest person in this house, i'd like to share with you another story from this morning.

chris: do you think that whales are like, the last of the swimming dinosaurs?
me: no, they're mammals.
chris: but dinosaurs were mammals.
me: ummm... no. they were reptiles.
chris: i know that the carnivores were reptiles, but the big ones, the ones that cared for their babies, those were mammals.
me: .....
chris: stop smiling at me!

Friday, October 15, 2010

my handy husband

look at how handy my husband is.

i picked up a board from home depot, had them cut it to our specified length, and bought some wall brackets for it, in the hopes that husband would finish the job and install a shelf for me.

he did. and he did a GREAT job.

he really wasn't this proud. i made him pose for this photo.

he sanded the edges, primed it (we decided it didn't need paint since the cabinets are white, and it's just supposed to be a cheap shelf for us. it works perfect for that. he did his man magic and installed it, and now i have a wonderful place to store office supplies and cook books above the actual desk. so the desk is cleared for me to do homework!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

you're only as old as you feel.

isn't that how the saying goes? well, husband and i have made a conscious decision to live a life that reflects how old we are, rather than how old we feel. because man, we feel 50! here's some examples of how lame we are:
  1. we go to bed at 9. seriously. sleeping by 9:30. every night.
  2. we have friday date "nights" at 5:30pm. we even beat the senior citizens to the restaurants.
  3. i don't remember the last time we went out with friends, because everyone wants to go out later than us.

so, we are going to change this. not because it's bad that we live this way, but because we both seriously feel lazy and really bad by living our current lame lifestyle. and not because of the way we're perceived by others. really, we feel bad about ourselves. lazy was the best description. after 9+ hours of sleep, i don't feel like i got enough. so, changes are in effect.

first goal:
stay awake until 10pm for one week.
second goal:
stay awake until 11pm for one week.
third goal:
be those cool people who can hang out with those cool people who stay out late.

we started this with a couple of "motivators". if we get tired and feel like we have to go to sleep before the appointed time, we will do something. go somewhere. do chores. go for a walk. i like to stay busy anyways, so it's not a bad thing for me. heck, maybe i'll start going to the gym in the evening.

so, last night, i cooked dinner. after dinner, i did homework. then, well, i don't remember what i did. i think homework took a while. i know i read two victoria's secret magazines (why on earth do i get three a week! save some trees, VS, and just email me!). and, last night, chris sanded, painted, and installed a shelf above the desk in the kitchen, so that the desk can just hold the computer and my homework, and the shelf can hold office supplies and cookbooks. it looks so much more organized now, and i'm so happy that he got that completed (i'll blog about that later. this is already my second blog post of the day.).

tonight, i teach. BUT, it's a short class, which means that i will still have energy afterwards. i'm going to stop by the grocery store for milk and butter. because, dude. i am out of butter. what? i love the kitchen! how could i have ran out of butter?! anyways, i'm making pie crusts. really, just that. pie crusts. i plan on baking pies this weekend, and hannah sent me a pie crow with recipes for pie crust as a wedding gift-- so i know how to make delicious pie crust and freeze them until i need them.

ANYways... back to the point of this post. husband and i are done being old. we are done going to bed before the 9:00 news comes on (related, i watched the news last night. it was fun!). and, last night we succeeded in following our new rules. we actually stayed up WAY later than 10- we didn't go to bed until around 11! aaaannnnndddd.... when we woke up this morning, we felt plenty refreshed.

we can do this.

who i am

i'm a child of God
i'm a critical person
i'm a timely person
i'm a creative person
i'm a caring person
i'm a kitchen person
i'm a good wife
i'm a good friend
i'm a good employee


if i'm anything other than this, i am unaware of it. and i don't want to be a bad person. or a rude person. if i display those negative characteristics, i wish someone would talk to me about it.
because i got an email this morning that made me sad. it called me rude. said this person was "done with me" because i'm rude to them and to other people, and they aren't going to take it anymore.

i'm terribly confused. i realize that the person who sent this can be a little off, and takes their feelings out the wrong way, but i seriously remember being nothing but nice to them in particular. my husband and i even invited this person over to carve pumpkins this month. because i like this person. they're also creative, and funny, and kind-- when they're in the mood to be, it seems.

i realize i shouldn't be hurt by this. i should be feeling like the bigger person for trying to have a conversation with them to see what the problem was, for reaching out and being willing to discuss and fix this friendship. but i'm hurt. i'm sitting here doing tons of soul-searching type stuff, trying to see if i'm really a rude person. i do know i'm critical. i said that in the beginning. but it's something that's a part of me, and something i've made a conscious effort to be better about. and it's not something i voice to people i don't know well. i don't talk about people behind their backs. i even don't get upset over much.

and i just don't get it. do other people think i'm rude, too? what can i do to change people's perception of me, if they think i'm rude?-- because i'm not rude. i'm not saying i'm a saint. i joke with friends like everyone does. whenever i possibly say something of the "rude" persuasion, it's in joking and in a group that understands it. 

end sob story.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

the chilean miners are safe

conversation with my husband at 9:45 tonight. he's on the computer, i've been watching the news reports about the chilean miners.

me: it was so nice to see that story about the miners.
chris: oh, i bet they're all of age.
me: *blank stare*
chris: let it sink in... wait...
cue laughter.

and this, people, is why we usually go to bed at 9.

Monday, October 11, 2010

awesome weekend surprise

i had an amazing weekend surprise from my husband and best friend. it was the perfect ending to a week spent cuddled up on the couch with bowls of chicken noodle soup and cups of hot tea and antibiotics.

chris surprised me with a weekend trip to visit leann. it was perfect. we drove the 5.5 hours there early saturday morning, then chris stayed with MK while leann and i went out. we went shopping--

a christmas gift for a friend. shhh.

hobby lobby, jc penney, babies-r-us, target, then to dinner at bonefish. it was perfect.

we had to do the "facebook kiss face"- i'm not too good at it.
 we got home, and didn't stay long at leann's place. we stayed just long enough to make win laugh and laugh and laugh. seriously. a baby's laugh is one of the greatest things in the world.

next morning, it was just church, then heading home. it was a long drive, and i knew we still had laundry to do. BUT we had to make a stop on the way home to see erica-- because i had to pick up my gift that chris bought for me (erica picked it up because it was a good deal. long story).

i had butterflies in my tummy when i was opening it. seriously. we washed it up, then used it right away. i know it was just vanilla pudding from a packet, but i HAD to use it!

Friday, October 8, 2010

sick... week??

i've been sick all week. hopefully today's the last of it. 

Monday: stayed home sick, feeling "crummy"
Tuesday: attempted to go to work. left after three hours, to the doctor. diagnosed with strep and a sinus infection.
Wednesday: stayed home, doctor's orders, because i was still contagious.
Thursday: felt ok in the morning, went to work, started to feel miserable, was sent home by my boss.
Friday: stayed home. i didn't want to risk another thursday.

i'm sick of soup. and of not getting prettied up. and of antibiotics. but i know i'm sick and need to stay home and rest, because i have a horrible immune system. being sick this week also means i haven't been a big contributor to the domestic daredevils. i hope that changes next week, as i've got a lot of meals planned that i want to make-- husband's been a huge help this week, getting dinner ready and cleaning the house. i feel like a lazy rock though, because i haven't had the energy to do anything productive! i hope that my energy picks up, because it appears we have *big plans* this weekend. stay tuned for a possible blog post about that :-)

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

first, thanks thanks thanks to megan over at thoughts of an oxymoron for the shoutout on her blog recently. she's super fun, and if you haven't seen her blog yet, do it. it's waaay more random than mine is, but she's always got something to say. i'd love to take her to happy hour some day. i'm going to copy her blog and do the 10-and-10. mainly because i'm home sick and don't want to do anything else just yet.

note: my things i like are going to be circumstantial. and seeing as under my current circumstances, i am drugged on super-antibiotics and hot tea, you see where i'm coming from.

Ten Things I Like
1. hot tea. even in the summer. great way to start or end the day.

2. pittsburgh. the city. the people. the weather. the food.

3. cool breezes and fall colors.

4. coffee. hot, steaming, black coffee. afternoons, it's iced with a spoon of sugar.

5. homemade things. food. quilts. decorations.

6. curling up with a warm blanket while reading better homes and gardens.

7. boots no. 7 mascara and cuticle oil. available at your neighborhood target.

8. carving pumpkins. i can't wait to do it this week with husband. we already bought our pumpkins, now we just need them to take shape!

9. road trips with crochet hooks and plenty of yarn.

10. having a close group of friends/family. the people you can count on-- and not just when they need something.

And now for the 10 Props to your blog.  You should follow these too. And you should follow me. *shameless self promotion* Sorry. ;-)

we three kings - because she's my best friend in real life, too.
thoughts of an oxymoron - because duh, see my first paragraph in this post.
domestic daredevils - because it's full of fun recipes and kitchen tips. oh, and i write there, too. but erica and i are fun to read! i promise!
busy bee lauren - i'm sure you're already reading there. sorry. but as much as i don't want to like it, i come back to this blog every day.
happy young wife - because she is a positive blogger.
simple bliss... - because she posts about everything from her job, to her husband, to being a good wife, to crafts, to cooking... kinda like me.
the mind of a mama - because i know her in real life, too. and she's a fun blogger. and she just had her birthday.
b-lines - because she posts baby win updates. and crafts. i have a thing for crafts.
i believe in unicorns - i recently found this blog and it ends up being tons of fun! she's positive, like me. yay.

wait. that's only 9 blogs. well, it's better than posting an extra one just to waste your time. i follow way more blogs that this. just check out my blogger profile to see what i follow. follow them.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

i'm being crafty again

i love being crafty. i also love projects that allow for quick results. i don't like waiting months to see what my project will be like. wait, that's my fault for taking so long on the quilt-- wow. that was a post in february. ouch. gotta finish that.

anyways, although i'm so far behind, i have great intentions. i just don't have any time. but when i do have time, i make it count. freezer cooking days, small craft projects. like i said. quick results.

i really need an exacto knife. this was dangerous.

so yesterday i made some halloween decorations! isn't this fun?

it was pretty easy. cut the words out of cardboard. paint black. decorate with orange polka dots and glitter. make your own bows and hang using halloween ribbon.

instant gratification, and a fun decoration for october. i think i'll make one for christmas, too! maybe thanksgiving... you could do this for any holiday!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

when i grow up

i want to have the body of a dancer.
i want hair that looks perfect in every photo.
i want to be the best manager of personal time.
i want to invent a dozen new recipes.
i want my husband to desire me every day.
i want to be a doctor.
i want to be someone's best friend.
i want someone to buy my art.
i want to make enough art to sell.
i want to host themed parties.
i want to give the best gifts for any occasion.
i want my house to look quirky, yet stylish.

have you found me over at domestic daredevils yet?
follow us there. it's already full of tips and recipes.
and fun.

Friday, October 1, 2010

October 1st

whoo-ee, October! thanks for coming!

it's time for:

spiced teas and apple cider
massive menu planning
carving pumpkins
trips to the state fair
crafting leaf garland

what? no more food?

that's right. if you've been paying attention, which you may not-- i don't know who reads this (or doesn't, for that matter)-- this blog has turned to food. it's not a food blog. it's my blog. it's just happened to switch gears over the past few... months? so i have a new project. but it's not just mine! i have a joint blog with a friend of mine over at domestic daredevils. it's just in the beginning stages (as in, started last night), but will totally be worth the read. erica is phenomenally fun, and she's an entertaining writer. and her dishes are more exotic than mine are, generally.

but we both love food, and fun, and sharing. so you benefit. recipes, tips, tricks-- it's worth the follow. so, follow us over there! even if you never read it. it'll make us feel good to see a bunch of followers :-)